The God Who Seeks Out Atheists
So, I was an atheist the first time I heard God's voice. Not only was I was not REMOTELY in any sort of religious setting, I was fully involved in doing things both illegal & immoral 
. It was an electrifying, terrifying, mind-shattering experience. And it happened repeatedly over a span of several months.
. It was an electrifying, terrifying, mind-shattering experience. And it happened repeatedly over a span of several months.Ā
So I was left with one of two choices: either I was going insane (always a possibility, given my various mind-altering escapades) or this "God" being actually existed and for some inexplicable reason was trying to get in touch with me.
Interestingly, once I accepted that God existed, I went on a search for God in every direction except towards Jesus.
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I had been around Christianity all my life, so I KNEW it was fake, right? I mean, it HAD to be something else. For me, growing up and going to church and being around Christians, I knew many people were just faking it. And all educated people tacitly admitted that science was the true underlying engine of explanation & power for all of life, not religion or God.
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For sure, I knew many sincereĀ Christians as well, but no one I knew had really experienced or even expected anything supernatural. So at best, it was just a form of superstition. So I had already ruled out Jesus.
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After about a year of searching for God and not finding anything even remotely satisfying, I finally thought, "Well, I suppose I should read the Bible. I mean, what excuse do I have for NOT reading it?".
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All I can say is that I remember the moment I read Jesus' words (Luke 5) āWho needs a doctor? Is it the healthy or the sick? Iām here inviting outsiders, not insiders ā an invitation to a changed life, changed inside and out.ā
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That just shook me. This was the God I was searching for: the one who sent Jesus to seek out and save the lost ones, the outsiders. And the parable of the shepherd who left the ninety-nine sheep to seek out the one lost one just resonated so powerfully. I must also admit I found it hilarious that all the "good people" were over there seeking God at church and here HE was, seeking ME out, completely in the opposite direction 
Anyways, just want to say: I don't ever want to lose sight of who Jesus is. He is the God who seeks out and speaks to atheists.
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